michelleleithead

two years and nine months ago, to this very day, i lost you the day-to-day pain gets less and less, but when the memories come back,...that pain.. that is the hardest i miss you more as each day passes, and a flood of regrets rush through me i regret all the times lying in bed after a nightmare, and not rushing into bed with you i regret all the times we fought i regret all the times i didnt understand what cancer was and that mommy was going to die i regret not clueing in to that mommy was sick and wasnt going to be around forever i regret not making those 7 years i had with you after the diagnoses count, if not for me, at least yo

So yeah as you probably can tell im in a really bad mood Its been three years since my grandpa passed today, and he was my best friend he gave me my attitude, sense of humor, and my handy-man...ness now that he and my mom are gone, it feels like something is missing fuck, even worse mood now.. realizing its almost been 3 years since mom passed too well this is just great anyways, from past experiences ive learned when im in a mood i usually produce great art doesnt matter what mood, as long as its something other than normal odd to say seeing as im anything but normal but i feel in a dark charcoal-ish mood so if anyone out there wa

Gives me no time to draw... ffs, i hate this week im too busy to do anything i did a bit last night but didnt finish anything, and then tonight i have work till 10, and im using the time from when i get home from school till i have to go to work to dye my hair, and then wednesday i have two assignments to do :( I dont work thursay (yippeeee) so i could probably do some paintings that night work friday night, boyfriends gig saturday, and relaxing/dying/recovering day sunday have i mentioned i hate this week? cause yup, i sure as hell do :(